"exestential" is probably misspelled. Trying existential instead Definition of existential
1
[ adjective ] derived from experience or the experience of existence

Synonyms

experiential

Examples

"the rich experiential content of the teachings of the older philosophers"- Benjamin Farrington "formal logicians are not concerned with existential matters"- John Dewey

2
[ adjective ] of or as conceived by existentialism

Examples

"an existential moment of choice"

3
[ adjective ] relating to or dealing with existence (especially with human existence)
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